Time Heals All Wounds.....

     OK so I know that is the famous saying that everyone says after you lose a loved one,  but let me say this,  I don't think that anything will heal the wounds.  I talked to my daughter last night about her recent mood change and I think that the recent death of her NEEN has had a huge impact on her.  She has always been a moody kid but the last month it is bad.  She told me that she hasn't been sleep well and she just can't think.  I know from what I can see that she is in trouble so I called the doctor today and she is giving her an antidepressant.  I sure hope that it helps.   I hate to see my baby girl hurting.  It took her 2 years to begin to get over Grandma Cartwright so I don't know why I thought that she would be doing OK with Neena being gone.  Mom was such a huge part of my life and my kids life too.  Mom always told me that I needed a best friend or at least a friend that I could spent time with besides her,  I always told her I didn't need another friend,  I had her and the kids.  Well now that mom is gone,  the kids are my life and I am trying to learn to live without my mom. 
      I went to the MD yesterday and the doc put me on another med to help me deal with the whole situation, but honestly I don't think that anything will help unless someone can go up to heaven and bring my momma back to me.  I just really don't want to think about life without mom,  it is almost like she is just on a vacation, but I must admit that the vacation is lasting just a bit to long and she can come home anytime now,  she has been gone long enough.  If this is a test I think that I failed big time.  I was able to go back to work for what 3 weeks and that was enough.  I personally don't know if I am going to be able to go back to work.  I really don't care if I do go back to work.  I know that I should care but really I don't give a f***. 
     I hope that one day soon I will care what happens.  The only thing that I do care about it my family and my kids.